The hand job with a crappy ending

So this is what is getting operated on in 2 weeks. Ugh. It is actually not that bad right now. It swells up a lot worse sometimes.

Friends think they are funny when they say, "You're a righty, at least you can still jack off." I respond with, "Not really, I have to use both hands." It shuts them up pretty quickly.

How did it happen? I was on the phone fighting with my ex about 5 months ago and I smashed a glass with my hand. Stupid... I know. Like the time I put my hand through my ex's windshield after I caught him cheating. Or the time I punched a brick wall. Or... you get the idea. I get angry and I punch things sometimes. NEVER a person. I grew up as an abused child. Knocked around every day. I would NEVER hit a person in anger. Only self defense. And even that as a last resort. Like Tyler Saint in our wrestling match for Naked Kombat (and we know how well that worked out for me. Ugh.). I know it's not a good thing and I go to Buddhist meditation classes to try to stay stress-free. But every once in a while things just suck a little too much and I punch something. I'm human... and I'm working on it.

So I actually knicked a tendon and lost some movement in my middle finger and had massive pain. The surgeon wanted to wait to see how that healed up because the surgery for that would be worse than the actually injury. So we waited and it did get better. I have full motion (you should see me flip someone the bird!) and the pain is gone. I just have this weird "creaky", "jerky" feeling when I bend my finger. Kind of like it's a dried out old rubberband that going to break. It's not bad and I've gotten used to it.

Unfortunately, a pretty large mass has formed in the pad of my hand. Sometimes it swells up really badly. And sometimes it's just a large hard lump. A piece of glass must still be stuck in there (glass won't show up in an xray) and my body is walling it off with scar tissue and trying to fight it I guess. It hurts like heck now.

So the surgeon is going to cut it open and remove the mass and the glass. There is a tendon and nerve right where the lump is so he can't just cut there. He has to cut a fairly large "L" shape, move the tendon and nerve, and then remove what's not supposed to be there. FUN!!!

I'm gonna have to wear a large "Mickey Mouse" glove for a few days since I'll have some major bandages on my hand. That will be HOT!!! With Conner Habib's fetish for bunny heads, maybe the Mickey hand will turn him on too! Recovery time should be 2 or 3 weeks. Unless they find it infected when they open it up. Then he will not close the wound. He'll leave it open and let it close from the inside out. That will take longer.

So I'm trying to schedule any upcoming shoots (like my Bound Gods shoot on May 11th) before the surgery or after the recovery time (like the tentative shoot in Palm Springs with a new BDSM company on the weekend of June 12th). Of course, I won't be able to work out while my hand is healing so my body is going to slip a little. I hope not too much. I'll try to focus on my abs and legs and whatever I still can do. Eh... what can you do?

Anyway, that's what's going on with my hand. Isn't life a lot less complicated and a whole lot prettier when I just post a picture of my hard cock or my butt?