Friday, May 1, 2009

The hand job with a crappy ending

So this is what is getting operated on in 2 weeks. Ugh. It is actually not that bad right now. It swells up a lot worse sometimes.

Friends think they are funny when they say, "You're a righty, at least you can still jack off." I respond with, "Not really, I have to use both hands." It shuts them up pretty quickly.

How did it happen? I was on the phone fighting with my ex about 5 months ago and I smashed a glass with my hand. Stupid... I know. Like the time I put my hand through my ex's windshield after I caught him cheating. Or the time I punched a brick wall. Or... you get the idea. I get angry and I punch things sometimes. NEVER a person. I grew up as an abused child. Knocked around every day. I would NEVER hit a person in anger. Only self defense. And even that as a last resort. Like Tyler Saint in our wrestling match for Naked Kombat (and we know how well that worked out for me. Ugh.). I know it's not a good thing and I go to Buddhist meditation classes to try to stay stress-free. But every once in a while things just suck a little too much and I punch something. I'm human... and I'm working on it.

So I actually knicked a tendon and lost some movement in my middle finger and had massive pain. The surgeon wanted to wait to see how that healed up because the surgery for that would be worse than the actually injury. So we waited and it did get better. I have full motion (you should see me flip someone the bird!) and the pain is gone. I just have this weird "creaky", "jerky" feeling when I bend my finger. Kind of like it's a dried out old rubberband that going to break. It's not bad and I've gotten used to it.

Unfortunately, a pretty large mass has formed in the pad of my hand. Sometimes it swells up really badly. And sometimes it's just a large hard lump. A piece of glass must still be stuck in there (glass won't show up in an xray) and my body is walling it off with scar tissue and trying to fight it I guess. It hurts like heck now.

So the surgeon is going to cut it open and remove the mass and the glass. There is a tendon and nerve right where the lump is so he can't just cut there. He has to cut a fairly large "L" shape, move the tendon and nerve, and then remove what's not supposed to be there. FUN!!!

I'm gonna have to wear a large "Mickey Mouse" glove for a few days since I'll have some major bandages on my hand. That will be HOT!!! With Conner Habib's fetish for bunny heads, maybe the Mickey hand will turn him on too! Recovery time should be 2 or 3 weeks. Unless they find it infected when they open it up. Then he will not close the wound. He'll leave it open and let it close from the inside out. That will take longer.

So I'm trying to schedule any upcoming shoots (like my Bound Gods shoot on May 11th) before the surgery or after the recovery time (like the tentative shoot in Palm Springs with a new BDSM company on the weekend of June 12th). Of course, I won't be able to work out while my hand is healing so my body is going to slip a little. I hope not too much. I'll try to focus on my abs and legs and whatever I still can do. Eh... what can you do?

Anyway, that's what's going on with my hand. Isn't life a lot less complicated and a whole lot prettier when I just post a picture of my hard cock or my butt?

10 comments:

Doug said...

ouch! hope things heal up quickly.

James said...

You didn't mention your surgery and healing time in respect to your day job. Must not be a problem, huh? You must be a righty on the comuter also. i hope all goes well and may your heal time be fast. HUGS :-)
James from Iowa

DamienNZ said...

Mr Nick - you realise we come to the blog BECAUSE you post more than your cock and ass.

We love ya cock and butt - but we also love that you are more than that.

Best of luck with the surgery.

Stan said...

I agree with DamienNZ. Nick do you realize you have one of the most interesting blogs of any porn star out there. Usually most will just post their upcoming scene or shoot which is fine and I get that but you share more than that and your followers/fans CARE about you.

I sure hope everything works out for the best! I don't think that body of yours will slip that much what with the condition your in.

Anonymous said...

omg -- i think i love you Nick. God that makes me hate you.

;-)

Pick said...

Yikes! I'd say OUCH is an understatement.
I wish you all the best with the surgery ... it sounds kinda gross, but what a relief it will be to be rid of your "alien".

So ... a two hander huh? He asks dreamily, and sighs. ;o[)

miamiglen said...

Hey R, Take care, a body (and mind) can only handle so much abuse and still bounce back. Be good to yourself, G

Anonymous said...

"I was on the phone fighting with my ex about 5 months ago and I smashed a glass with my hand. Stupid... I know. Like the time I put my hand through my ex's windshield after I caught him cheating. Or the time I punched a brick wall."


Jesus. Your life is my worst nightmare. :(

Can I ask where did you meet these men? I'd like to avoid those places.

Also, was the sex good or bad?

Still got the single blues I see.

DamienNZ said...

Mr Nick - if you need some temporary company we would be HAPPY to host you in New Zealand.

I'm a qualified masseur and the hubby is a tech geek with ALL the gadgets you could want - AND I am a wiz in the kitchen :)

Come on down ! :)

Tom said...

Aw, babe, I hope your surgery goes off without a hitch and that you'll be back to double-fisting that hot cock again in no time. =)