Getting sketchy

So I'm back home after my trip to San Francisco. I filmed 3 scenes (2 for Tom Ropes McGuirk and 1 for Pantheon Productions), went to the GAYVN Awards, the Magnitude Party (where I put on a live sex show... my first!), attended the Real Bad Party, and the Folsom Street Fair (where I ended up on the Kink.com stage getting whipped by Van Darkholme, and then wandered around the fair and flogged a few people. I also got to spend time with lots of old and new friends, like Drew Cutler, Leo Forte, Element Eclipse, Tony Buff and his boys, Vince Ferelli, Race Cooper, Conner Habib, Alessio Romero, Samuel Colt, Chris Porter, Spenser Reed, Tom Wolfe, Mike Dreyden, Junior Stellano, Franchesco Machado & Damien Crosse... hell, the list goes on, and on, and on!

Add all this together and also include a day trip to Fishermen's Wharf, a perfect day in beautiful Doloris Park and having Armsted Maupin watch you fuck again, and you have a wonderful but exhausting week! But you know, I wouldn't change a minute of it! So what if I'm a little sketchy tonight after the long week and the long flight home.

And speaking of being sketchy...
I started doing some rough sketches for the new line of art that I want to produce. I haven't mentioned my idea yet because I was trying to see what would work for me. What I would be able to produce in a beautiful way? And what final product might have a market that might be interested in buying it?

So my idea is to take some of the 1000's of "behind the scenes" photos from the many different porn shoots I've been in and turn them into art pieces that capture a memorable moment.
Here is a rough draft I did on the plane ride home today that kind of shows you what I'm talking about. The color photo below is one I took of Luke Riley on the Bound Gods shoot I did with him. The Black and white sketch below it is my rendition of the color photo. Please remember that it is just a rough draft that I did in a couple of hours on the plane. The final pieces I produce will look much more polished and complete. So what do you think? Is there a market out there for Nick Moretti artwork based on his BDSM experiences?

I have so many amazing stories from this week in San Francisco and I will tell them all in my next posts, so keep checking back!!

My favorite Element

I just finished my second day of shooting with Element Eclipse and it went AWESOME! I think I had a personal best when it came to cum shoot distance. Can't wait to see that one!

Element Eclipse. I just want to take that boy and put him in my pocket and have him with me everywhere I go. Although, I thing his huge dick would hang out and I would end up tripping a lot.

I'm back at my hotel and getting dressed for the GAYVN Awards. Should be a lot of fun! I'll take pictures and post them when I can.

One more shoot for Pantheon Productions/Hot Older Male tomorrow and then my work is over and the real fun starts!!!

Hot 3-way at Folsom

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Kink.com show at 2009 Folsom Street Fair

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Another Saturday night and...

It's another exciting Saturday night on Nick Moretti's couch. Yes, that was sarcasm. Things have finally settled down around here (hope it lasts!) and I'm finally breathing a sigh of relief and unwinding.

I've been busy as heck getting ready for my upcoming trip to San Francisco which is turning into a mini pornapalooza. I was originally booked for two scenes with Tom Ropes McGuirk and was hoping to get the chance to do the show at the Folsom Street Fair, but that has changed. Van let me know that they are filming at the fair, and since I just filmed at the Dore Alley Street Fair, he was going to use some different models. I completely understand that and I'm going to be back filming for Bound Gods in just a couple of weeks with a completely AWESOME bondage sub. So I get to just hang out and enjoy the fair.

I contacted my buddies at Pantheon Productions/Hot Older Male and told them I was going to be in town for Folsom week and they asked me if I wanted to do a scene while I was there. HELL YA!!! I love working with those guys. So I am tentatively doing a scene with my buddy, Mike Dreyden (been DYING to work with him! See photo with him & I.) and with HOT daddy Paul Barbaro. (See photo of the hot daddy in the suit with the boner.) I'm going to be a happy little piggy if this scene happens!

So three scenes, the GAYVN Awards, the Folsom Street Fair, the Magnitude Party, and the Real Bad Party all in one week. I'm going to start taking my Geritol now.

At home I've been working out hard, reading hard, doing some web design work, and trying to reconnect with friends and relax. Last week I went to see Eat Pray Love (Eh... it was OK) and today I saw Alpha & Omega in 3D. It got really bad reviews but I liked it a lot! Have to say it was really all over the place with weird "RENT" type song breaks inserted here and there, but it worked for me. And it was 3D. You could film a piece of poo and I would like it as long as it was in 3D. Classy, I know.

Yesterday, I refinished a really big mirror that I bought in a consignment shop for $10.00. I took the metal accent pieces off and painted them brush silver, painted the mirror a really nice hammered deep bronze finish, and mounted it to the wall above my sink in my master bathroom. It really looks awesome... I think.

I've also been reading a lot. I always read two or three books at a time and right now I am reading a self help book that a friend gave me titled "Breaking FREE From the Victim Trap, Reclaiming Your Personal Power". I've been through therapy before... several times actually, so the material is nothing new, but it's written really well and it's a good tune-up for me at a time when I need it. Deep rooted issues never really die and sometimes you have to go back and beat them down. And look at the cover! It is completely, freakin fabulous! (I NEVER use that word but what other word fits here?) There is sultry 50's chick, wearing hooker red lipstick, floating in some puffy white clouds, a really bad graphic of a cheesy link of chains that has been broken, a bright sunburst, and an eagle soaring. Could they possible put another cliche image in there? I'm also reading the fourth book in the "Odd Thomas" series. I gave up on Dean Koontz books a long time ago because they were pretty much all the same stuff rehashed over and over again. Then I stumbled upon "Odd Thomas" and freakin LOVED it! I highly recommend the book and the series. In the mail today, I just got the third book in the "Ender's Game" series by Orson Scott Card which is titled "Xenocide", so I guess that is going to be next up on my reading list.

Right now it's about 12:30am and I just finished eating a Marie Callender's Lasagna dinner (I'm old school Italian and I have to say it is pretty freakin awesome!). I spend the night doing some web design for the huge real estate website that I manage, updating my blog, and now I'm going to work on a video I've been editing for a while. It's the perfect time to finish it and release it. Trust me. I think my fans at Bound Gods will really like it!

Inverview with Van Darkholme at METALBOND!

Metal at METALBOND blog just posted about his recent visit to The Armory and a great interview with by friend, mentor and hero, Van Darkholme.

Van is a pretty shy guy and he rarely does interview so it's definitely worth checking out. And apparently...

"He also shared some humorous behind-the-scenes anecdotes, one of them involving the actor Nick Moretti, who … well, let’s just say he got a little “over-enthusiastic” one day with a fellow actor. "

Who me? LOL! I ALWAYS get over-enthusiastic with my fellow actors. I think it clearly comes across in my performance. Still, I'd LOVE to know the incident he was talking about. Maybe the time I pushed DJ, who was hanging on a meat hook suspended from a track on the ceiling, into a concrete wall, really, really hard (oops!).

Anyway, click here to check out the awesome post and interview at METALBOND.

Crawling out from under the rock

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Under the rock

It's Saturday night and this glamorous porn star is siting at home on his couch living the glamorous porn star life. Picked up some take-out sushi, heated up some sake, and finished it off with some hot chocolate while I watched the chick flick "Have you heard about the Morgans?"

I've actually rolled the rock from in front of the cave opening and rolled it on top of me. Close the safe space up a bit more. Guess I'll be digging a whole in the ground next, climb in, and roll the rock over on top of it.

I just went through all of the comments left the last couple of days and published them (hope I didn't delete any accidentally... sorry if I did). The last comment was from Michelle and it hit a nerve. She told me about how she became "the horrible one" after helping a friend who was addicted to meth and how, even though the situation was "completely different" from my current situation, she sympathized with me. Fact is... it not too far off.

My last posts have been these random, unexplained references to friends being out of control and the effects it was having on me. I might as well give a few details to connect some of the dots so that you guys don't think I'm a raving lunatic. Or at least more of a raving lunatic than I actually am. There are actually two situations and two separate, unrelated people causing my drama right now.

NOTE: I originally had two paragraphs describing what happened with "a friend" in New Orleans and that whole messed up situation. But I just got a nasty text message and some nasty emails with him calling me evil and horrible and threatening to call the papers and sue me. LOL. Sue me for what? Complaining about the way someone who is supposed to be my friend acted? Please! I don't need the drama. I want this person out of my life for good. I revised my post and took out the part that involved HIS drama. Not because I am afraid of being sued (that's just fucking stupid) but because I don't want any connection to this person any more and I want him to stop contacting me. Period. Now hopefully he will leave me alone once and for all. I tried. I tried really, really hard. Believe me.

The other situation started about 3 hours after I escaped from the place I was supposed to be staying (which somehow ended up with broken glass on the floor and blood on the bed that was supposed to be mine after I left). I used my phone to book a hotel (which I can not afford right now) and checked in. After a couple of hours of calming down I went out to one of the clubs to dance and let off some steam for a while. (Of course the whole time my cell phone was beeping with text messages of hate, love and suicide.) I planted myself in the middle of the dance floor, closed my eyes, and danced. While I was trying to get lost in the music I felt someone come up behind me and hug me. It was a friend of mine from LA. We hugged and both said how good it was to see each other again.

This encounter led to a completely unexpected encounter with a friend who is very important to me. Even though our relationship had been strained lately, he has and is the core of my life. And from this encounter I found out something that touched something very, very deep in me and pushed a very bad button. The friend brought up in conversation how he had been using meth.

WHAT THE FUCK!!!!! I have NO tolerance for that drug. Never have and never will. I have had to many people I love have their lives ruined by it. There is NO GOOD part about using the drug. And my friend knew, probably better than anyone else in my life, how strongly I felt about this. Of course my friend has his own free will and can do whatever he wants with his life.

We talked about the situation and it was bad. That is the very, very, very watered down version.

WHAT THE FUCK WAS I GONNA DO? I couldn't stand by and watch someone I love. Someone who's been the most important person in my life for a long, long time lose everything. My friend was not going to listen to me. He knows my absolute opinion and when we talked about it he told me that I was just closed minded. That he did the research on it. That his new "friends" were very nurturing. He painted such a positive picture of his meth situation. I could not be the one to fix this situation, especially given the state of our relationship.

When I got back home I found out more about my friends meth situation. Took some photos as proof, and I acted. I sent a message to his best friend, sent him the photos, and asked him to call me immediately. When he called back I told him the whole situation. He was going to handle the situation. I told him to please let me know how it went and to keep me updated on the progress.

They talked and I got a message saying so. No details at all. I then got a message from my friend saying that a couple of his friends had talked to him and that he understood why I did what he did. We talked many times after that and it all ended with him not having a problem, but stopping anyway, and me being the closed-minded bad one.

I can't give details, but the situation has been rough. Messages coming at me from my friend with the meth non-problem. And I'm the bad guy.

Things settled down today. I got only one email from the original friend with the fake suicide attempt. He said it would be his last one and that he hoped one day I could forgive him and we could be friends. The friend with the meth non-problem hasn't messaged me today. I hope he is doing OK and I hope he gets his life back on track. I really do think this will work out OK for my friend and I really do think he will stop using. I pray he does and would do anything to help him in his tough times (which he say's he doesn't have any). His best friend who I trusted to take care of the situation has not contacted me even once to let me know what happened or what is happening.

Of course I can't stop thinking about it. Even the rock on top of me doesn't block out the thoughts.

UPDATE... The "last message" from my original friend was not the last message. It was followed by two videos via email and some hate messages and threats. And it's me that's the bad guy. If I'm such a bad guy why can't he just stay away from me and leave me alone?

What can I say?

Honestly, what can I say? I'm afraid to talk about what's going on. The "friends" involved read my blog. And I am not trying to open up this can of worms any further. I'm not trying to hurt anyone. So I'm not going to mention details of what a nightmare this last week has been, the trip to New Orleans, and what a nightmare it continues to be. I ended my last post by saying I was ready to kick some ass. Well... I got mine kicked instead.

After being in New Orleans for only a few hours, I ended up having to get out of the place I was staying and get my own hotel (which I can't afford) for the whole trip. Two situations with two separate people were playing themselves out at the same time. Both bad. Both over the top. WAY over the top.

I got home to find one situation was worse than I thought. And I did what I thought I had to do to stop it. I took action... to save someone I love. Even if they didn't think they needed saving. It fucking tears me apart. And in the end I ended up being the bad guy.

Days later and I am still numb. The emails and texts keep coming. I'm the bad guy. I only hope someone does for me what I did for someone I love if that situation ever occurs. I'm so tired of helping people and ending up the bad guy. Funny part is.... they are surrounded by friends. They have people around them now to help them through their problems. For one of them because of my actions. For the other in spite of his actions. And I'm here alone... with the words "fuck you" still echoing through my head. And my heart.

So I'm trying not to obsess. Trusting that what I did was the right thing on all accounts. Trying to move on from this mess. Not even my mess really. The summer storms produced a huge rainbow over my neighborhood. One of my favorite restaurants served up some of my favorite foods. And the woman at the local nail shop pampered my feet and made them look nice for my shoot tomorrow with Ryan Raz for Men Over 30. Or Extra Big Dicks. I'm really not sure. Just trying to move on. I posted some photos I took below.

I have to give a sincere THANK YOU to everyone who sent messages of concern and support this past week. I really means a lot to me. More than you know. Much more than you know. Thank you.