Bear Party

I got a message from awesome photographer Ken Slater today telling me that some photos from the shoot I had with him recently will be in the next Bear Party Magazine. Pretty cool! I can't wait to see which photos they choose... with clothes... or without. Here are a couple of photos from the shoot.

For the birds

This weekend was for the birds. Literally.

I guess I've been feeling kinda down and lonely while I recover from my surgery and after some recent heartaches. So I decided to add to my family. I started an aviary in my house and bought 3 pairs of finches and another canary. Nothing cheers you up like a pet, and little birds chirping and singing can melt anyone's heart. I hope.

The cage looks like Noah's arc since each type of bird hangs out with it's mate. I have to say the pair of little Orange Cheek Finches are especially endearing. They are so small and delicate looking.

I'm keeping Murphy (my original canary) in his own cage. I tried mixing him with the other birds but he was too aggressive. Guess he got used to being alone and being spoiled. The new yellow canary I got is getting along great with the finches and he and Murphy have already started singing to each other. Lately I've been wishing I had someone to sing with.

I ain't no doormat!

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New photos for your viewing pleasure

I just added a bunch of new photos to the "Porn Stars & Friends" section on my website. Click on over and check them out! I'm going to be adding a lot more FREE content during the next few weeks. Since I'm sidelined from filming porn after my surgery what the fuck else do I have to do?

Still in a lot of pain. Guess I can't complain since it's only been a week. Not taking any pain killers because they give me nightmares. Ugh. Can't wait to heal up from this freakin' surgery and get back to the gym and back to making nasty, dirty porn!

A pothole in the road to recovery

Today was my first day back at work. I'm supposed to take at least another 2 1/2 weeks off but, unfortunately, I can't. Gotta say it was a rough day. I was weak and dizzy for most of it. I actually left work about an hour early so I could avoid rush hour traffic and take my time driving home through the terrible storm we had today.

But today wasn't all bad. I got to work to find that my coworker and good friend Paul had left something for me on my desk. It was a blowup monkey holding that God-aweful picture of me right after the surgery, standing in a bowl filled with all kinds of cool candy. What a great surprise!

I also swung by the florist shop on my way to the see the doctor about my post-op results and rehab. It seems that my favorite butch florist, Lee (Good Guy Bear) was sweet enough to send me some amazing flowers... again! God are they beautiful. They really brightened my day and put a smile on my face. And I could use that right about now. Not only am I hurting physically, but I'm also hurting on the inside as well. I wasn't going to mention it on here but since I pretty much try to share everything in my life with those of you who read this blog I guess I will.

You see, during the last few months I got pretty close to someone. Against my better judgment, I let them into my life and my heart. Over the course of the last week that person has totally disrespected me and betrayed me. It hurts. I'm not going to go into details, I don't want any sympathy, I'm not going to make it into anything more dramatic than it is, and I don't want anyone (including myself) to harbor any bad feelings against this person . Who knows why he did what he did? I'm sure he had his reasons. I just want to put it in the past and move on with my life. It's just another pothole in the road. But I drive a pickup truck and a pothole isn't really going to slow me down. AND... I've been lucky enough to have my ex by my side during this rough time. He's taken care of me since the surgery and it has really meant a lot to me. He's listened to me whine and complain, moan in pain, bitch about all the rough stuff going on in my life, and he's made sure that I take care of myself. Even after all the rough times we've had he's been there for me. I have to thank him for that and I have to thank God for him.

As for my doctor's appointment...
He took the stitches out (after less than a week!), went over what he actually did during the surgery, and discussed what comes next. Because he only put in one new anchor and did some minor repairs to my shoulder, the recovery time will be a lot less than the last time. I have to wear the sling/brace for the next two weeks and then go see him again. At that point he's going to send me for physical therapy. I did so well with the therapy last time that he's only going to send me for two or three sessions and then have me do the rest of it at home. Considering how much this is costing me that is GREAT news. So hopefully I will be done with the therapy and back in the gym by mid-August. In the mean time, I can still work out my lower body so you can expect to see my legs and ass looking huge in the near future!

Not so bad underneath it all

Today I was allowed to take the bandages off of my shoulder and find out exactly what lay underneath. I was pleasantly surprised last time I had the surgery and was hoping for the same results this time.


However, as I started pealing layer after layer of blood soaked bandages away, my heart started racing and I got more concerned.

It's really amazing how many layers there were and how much blood... some of it still moist.

Finally I got down to the last layer and found the three holes where they cut through to do the laproscopic surgery.

I peeled off the square pieces of tape that covered the wounds and cleaned the area up with alcohol and hydrogen peroxide.

Considering the amount of disgusting, blood soaked material I had just pulled off of my shoulder, it looked awesome!

I have three small incisions with a couple of stitches in each. The area is still fairly swollen, but considering they just did major surgery on it, I can't complain. Thank God for laproscopic surgery!

Tomorrow I meet with the surgeon to discuss the details of exactly what he did, find out what kind of physical therapy and how long a recovery period I will need, and most importantly... find out when I can get back to the gym!

Gimme back my fucking chest hair!!!

Sorry I haven't posted for a few days but I've been feeling like total crap since the surgery on Thursday.

Everything went very well. Unfortunately, it wasn't the minor repair that I was hoping for. They did repair some damage to the repairs from the last surgery I had done on my shoulder, but there was also some new damage. They put another "anchor" in and sutured everything back in place. I had five metal anchors put in last time. I'm fucked at the airport going through the metal detectors.

They put a needle and some wire into my neck and gave me a pain block before the surgery. That made my entire arm dead. No feeling in it at all from the shoulder down to the fingers. It really helped with the post-op pain. Unfortunately, it doesn't last that long and about 6 hours later I started feeling my fingers. A few hours later I had a little pain. I took some pain killers and went to bed.

At 2:30am I woke up to the most excruciating pain I've ever had. FUCK!!!! Apparently, the pain block, the pain killers, and whatever was still in my system from the anesthesia had all worn off. Again... FUCK!!!!

So I took two more pain killers and waited patiently till I passed out again. Four hours later and I woke up to the same fucking pain.

I've been using this Ice Cooler Water Circulating contraption and it helps a little. It's a water and ice filled cooler with a pump that circulates the cold water through rubber tubes in a wrap around pad and keeps the swelling down and lessens the pain. (You can see the wrap around cooling pad in the first photo.)

The most painful part of this whole experience is that they shaved the whole left side of my chest. This crazy bitch at the hospital came at me with some clippers and completely tore up the skin on my chest and under my arm. I could deal with the bruised skin but MY CHEST HAIR!!!! Please don't take my chest hair!

It really looked fucked up having half a chest of hair and half shaved (kinda like the half man/half woman freak in a freak show) so I had to shave it all off. I FUCKING HATE IT!!!! I want my chest hair back immediately!

So you're probably wondering why I'm nude in my at home post-surgery photos. Actually, if you knew me at all you would KNOW there would be naked photos. But I guess they are here because, first, I'm a freakin porn star and people come to this site to hear porn stories and see dick and ass photos. No porn story today... so here's my dick! Or maybe it's just because I really like taking nude pictures of myself and showing them off. I do like to do that. Or maybe it's the pain killers. Whatever the case, here's another naked photo...

Maybe this could be the look of a new gay, physically challenged super-hero porn star character? What do you think? Kind of like the Terminator meets Stephen Hawking meets Nick Moretti. The MorettiHawkinator? Ugh... I gotta back off on the pain killers.

The good news... or the bad?

So you want to hear the good news first or the bad news?

OK, here's the good news...

My shoots for Manhandled last weekend in Palm Springs went freakin' AWESOME! In fact the whole weekend was incredible.

I had a whole beautiful "cottage" to myself with a great view of the pool and the mountains.

Nice big and comfy bed.


Beautiful view wherever you looked.


So amazing to see mountains. Florida, where I live, is so flat that the only hills are the land fills!

My first scene was with Cole Parker. He plays a pool boy who slacks off on the job. After the fucking I gave him he will never do that again!


Cole Parker cleaning the pool before I pound his ass.

My second scene is with HOT and SEXY Derrick Diamond, who I've worked with before at Bound Gods. In that scene he plays my boyfriend who comes home two hours late from the gym. I'm NOT happy, but that changes pretty fast as I rip his sweaty gym clothes off, wrap his jock strap around his throat, and fuck his ass into oblivion. HOT!!!


Derrick and I after our scene. After all the abuse I gave him I was glad he was still talking to me. The site is called Manhandled after all.


After we wrapped up, the whole cast and crew went to a Mexican restaurant and pigged out on some great food and the best guacamole I have ever eaten.

What an awesome weekend working with some really nice guys. Can't wait to see the how the two scenes turned out. If they are as hot as I think they are going to be I think I they will probably be my all-time favorites!

Now for the bad news...

I'm going for some major surgery on my shoulder in the morning. I had the same surgery five years ago and I messed up my shoulder again with working out and the bondage stuff I've been doing.

This is going to suck. The pain after the surgery is really, really bad. At least this time they are giving me a shot that will completely numb my whole arm for at least 24 hours. I am also getting a "pain pump" put in and it is supposed to drip pain killing drugs right into my shoulder socket. I still have the whole bottle of pain killers left over from my hand surgery last month if the pain is still that unbearable.

I found out I needed the surgery about two years ago after an MRI confirmed that I had a Labral Tear again. In the past two years the injuru and the pain has gotten worse. How much worse? We'll find out tomorrow when he's performing the surgery. Thank God he's doing laproscopic surgery, so the scars will be very minimal. You can't even see the ones from my last shoulder surgery.

So there we go. It's 3:00am and I am doing this post because I may be too fucked up on pain meds to do another lucid post for a couple of days. Or maybe I'll do a post while drugged up. That could be fun!

I've cleaned the house and put things in order so I can just relax until I go back to work on Tuesday. And DON'T EVEN think of yelling at me for going back to work so fast. I know I'm not supposed to but I can't afford not to. So unless you want to cover my bills while I'm out the recommended three months I suggest you hold your tounge and just say a prayer for me. And that's exactly what I am going to do before I head to bed in a few minutes... Pray.

I'm stocked up on the necessities for my pets and myself. Oh... I also have a big bottle of Coconut Rum, some Chocolate Soy Milk, and some Mudslide mix. That should get me through the next couple of days!

Double fucked on Craigs List!

I just got home exhausted from a full day at work after traveling and filming for the last 3 days to find an email from a reader tipping me off about a Craig's List posting using my picture. FUCK!
Here it is...
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Muscle Latin Btm DDF 2 take Loads frm Muscle Top Aggressive Verbal Yng - 35 (South beach at a hotel)

Very hot totally athletic built dude, have a fantasy about being a total slut one night, maybe even get double fucked if you have an E for me, real masculine, hot sexy built discreet guy back home, just want to have all bunch of hot muscle or just in shape hot guys under 35 who have nice big dicks or medium cocks cut or uncut, as long as you are verbal and aggressive and you like to pound a nice hot tight hole, to come over and find me naked in bed, maybe blindfolded, then fuck my face, make sure start saving your loads of cum now, then eat my cum filled hole, drink a few beers and piss down my throat and spit in my mouth if you like and spank my ass and call me your fucking whore, then pound me and donations will be appreciated towards the cost of the room, any sort of small or large donations, but it is not neccessary, i have never done this before but it is going to be one fucking hot sex party and you are going to love it... i have two hot guys line up already. later,

* Location: South beach at a hotel
* it's NOT ok to contact this poster with services or other commercial interests
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Damn... I wish I had that much fun in real life!!!!
Does anyone know how to have the fucking listing removed before someone thinks I'm some kind of sex pig or something. LOL

Don't fuck up my pool... boy.

It's 9pm and I just landed in Phoenix to find all the airport restaurants closed, except for Pizza Hutt. So I have an excuse to eat bad food. Not that I need to worry about that tonight though. I worked my ass off... actually, I worked Cole Parker's ass over... good and hard for most of the day. Veiwers of this video will know what happens to the poor pool boy when he slacks off. What a HOT fucking scene!!! Even got creative with my neck tie. This goes up there on my list of favorite shoots.

The Director said it was exactly what he had in mind for the scene and I know he wasn't lying because he's already asked me to come back again. They filmed three scenes this weekend (2 of them featuring me). If all of the scenes are as HOT & dirty as these he's going to have one mega-successful site!

I still have two hours till my next flight. Then another two hour layover in Charllote and then my final flight to Fort Lauderdale and right to work. I'd take an Ambien but I'm afraid I'd sleep through one of my layovers and miss my flight. It's going to be a LONG day tomorrow.

The straight guys fucking are keeping me up

Sorry I can't post any photos with this post (freakin iPhone doesn't post photos to Blogger) but I wanted to give a quick update on my shoot in Palm Springs.

My flights were great and I arrived in Palm Springs to find unseasonably cool weather. Awesome!!! I spent some time hanging with Gino, the Director and we really hit it off. We both share a taste for hot, dirty, rough sex. I think his new website will be a huge success. After about an hour Derrek landed and Gino went to pick him up. It was great to see him again and we all hung out by the pool and talked and laughed. I didn't go in cause I'm a wuss when it comes to cold water.

Cole, the other model I am working with tomorrow arrived this morning and he's hotter than he was in his pictures. Nice!

Derrek and I filmed our scene this afternoon and it went AWESOME! The setup was that I'm waiting for Derrek at home so we can go to a dinner party and he's really late. He walks in and acts like he really doesn't care that he's so late. So I punish his ass good and hard. At one point I rip off his sweaty jock strap, wrap it around his neck, and mercilessly pound his ass doggie style while choking him with it. So fucking hot!

Afterwards, we all went to Hamurger Mary's for Margaritas, Martinis and Mojitos afterwards and got to know each other a little better.

It's 10pm now and I'm falling asleep while watching the movie Happy Feet. I can't go to bed yet because two straight guys are fucking in there. They should be done filming soon... I hope. I need to get some rest so I can wake up bright and early and film my scene with Cole. Then it's off to the airport for my three connecting flight home and straight to work. I'll try to post again when I'm done filming tomorrow.

Ready to be Manhandled

I'm scrambling to finish up whatever work I have left at my "real job" so I can hop on the plane for Palm Springs (via Phoeinix) and my shoots for manhandled.com.

The scenes we are doing should work for me. Domination without the ropes, rough sex, forced blow jobs, spitting, gagging, verbal. Yup... right up my alley! I only hope that filming in the HOT Palm Springs sun doesn't kill an old man like me. LOL!

Don't remember if I've mentioned who I would be my scene mates yet. Well, here they are. Derreck Diamond and Cole Parker. Both sexy as hell! I worked with Derrek for Bound Gods and have hung out with him on several occasions. I'm looking forward to hanging with him again. Never met Cole before. He's a straight dude who works well with guys. I listened to an online interview with him where he says that the guys he prefers are smooth. Ummm... I don't think that is a work you can use to describe me. Should be interesting.

Although I can't be considered smooth, parts of me can be. Like my hand! I've been working hard at reducing the scar tissue and it is working. Here is a picture of what my hand looks like now. I have healed AMAZINGLY WELL!!! Instead of this huge, hiddeous scar, I know have what looks like a really long lifeline. I'm still doing my physical therapy to get the full range of movement and the strength back. I have to admit it hurts like hell when I do use it. I know that will pass too though.


Not sure if I'm going to be able to post this weekend. But don't worry... I'll be back on Monday with pictures and stories to tell! Everyone have a GREAT WEEKEND!!!

Countdown to Palm Springs

I'm so busy here at my "real job" that it's insane! They've laid off about 2/3rds of my company and most of the departments are doing really, really poorly. Except mine. Thank God!!! The only negative thing about this situation is that besides doing all of my regular workload, I've had to absorb responsibilities from multiple other positions that have been eliminated. So this means working my ass off and doing lots of overtime (which, of course, I don't get paid for).

You'd think my upcoming trip to Palm Springs would be a nice break from the pressures of work but it won't be. Tomorrow I work all day, go straight from work to the airport, take 2 connecting planes and arrive in Palm Springs just in time for bed. Saturday will be a whole day of filming (and it's supposed to be hot as fuck there). Early to bed and then up again for a full day of shooting on Sunday. (I'm doing two scenes.) After shooting wraps up I head straight to the airport where I take the red-eye (3 connecting flights) back to Fort Lauderdale. I'll land at 10:00am and go directly to work (1 1/2 hours late).

I know it sounds like I'm whining but I'm only trying to point out that making porn can be a lot more work than just showing up on a set, having hot sex, and cashing a check. It also means juggling all of the other details and responsibilities in your life to accommodate the added work. That said, I know I am going to have a freaking blast this weekend.

Gino, the owner of the company that I am working for in Palm Springs sounds like he is going to be great to work and hang out with. I also get to hang out and do another scene with Derrek Diamond. He is HOT as hell and fun and sweet and we have mad chemistry together. (Just check out our scene for the Bound Gods site if you want to know what I mean.) I'm also working with another guy that I've only seen pictures of. If the pictures are accurate he is HOT as hell also.

As far as resting, I'll have plenty of time for that towards the end of next week. I go for my shoulder surgery next Thursday morning and then have Friday and the weekend off to recover. Of course, the surgeon recommends 3 months off with 3 weeks being the bare minimum after the surgery, but I don't have the luxury of doing that. So I'll be back at my desk here at work on Monday morning, regardless of the condition I am in. Should be interesting.

Here are a couple of very short videos from my Gay Disney last weekend that were taken with my new camera. The first is at the Reunion Pool Party. I think you can tell that something caught my attention while I was filming that one! The second is from the Wonderland party at the Hard Rock. I was head over heals crazy for one of the dancers in the video. DAMN was he beautiful and could he move! YUM!!!

Thank you for making me cum!

Me, Ethan Grant and his HOT boyfriend ( forgot his name) at Gay Disney.

I'm home from Gay Disney and back to work. What a great weekend!

It was great to hang out with old friends from all around the country and make new ones. One of the old friends I ran into was Ethan Grant, my scenemate from the Hot House film "Masterpiece". He was there looking better than ever. He's packed on some serious muscle in all the right places. His boyfriend was nothing to sneeze at either. HOT!!! And they definitely won the least clothing award all weekend. They were pretty much just wearing jock straps whenever I saw them at one of the parties. And DAMN did they look good in them!

I want to send out a big THANK YOU to everyone who came up to me and said they liked my work in the films I've been in. Every time I hear something like that it makes me blush. My mind races to... "I wonder what scene they are talking about?" "What was I doing in it?" "Should I be embarrassed?" But deep inside I'm really proud of the work that I've done and it feels good to be acknowledged. One guy said, "Thank you for making me cum." It doesn't get any better than that!

It's busy as fuck here at my full time job so I can't really post more than this today. I do have lots of pictures and some videos of the weekend to post. Hopefully I will get to that tomorrow.

How to you say "Dildo" in Creole?

I ended up getting to the Gay Disney hotel much later than I wanted to last night. The Typhoon Lagoon water park party had already been going on for over two hours. But there was no way I was going to miss that!
So I pulled on my bathing suit and some flip flops, hoped in a cab, and got there right when the party was at it's peak. Hot men and boy in shorts and speedos splashing down the slides and grinding on the dance floor. Perfect!
I was going to go to the afterhours party at Arabian Nights but when I got back to my hotel room at 2:00am, and layed on the comfy bed, it was all over for me.
I just came back from having breakfast at the hotel all-you-can-eat buffet and found the cleaning lady servicing my room. I didn't want to go in until she was done so I thought this would be a great time to do a blog update. As I was sitting on the floor outside the room I heard the cleaning woman started laughing and then shouting to another cleaning lady across the hall. They were both laughing hysterically and talking in a mix if Creole and English. At one point I very clearly heard the word "dildo".
Crap! I know I went through my bags and took my clothes out, but did I close them up before I left the room? I prayed hard that the word for "soap" or "towel" in Creole was "dildo". But I feared the worse.
Five minutes later when the cleaning woman left after giving me a very, very big smile, I walked in the room and ran over to by bag. Yup... There it was poking out the side pocket.
I wonder if the word for "pillow" in Creole is "poppers"? I guess I'll find out tomorrow morning.

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A little head at Gay Disney

So my rapidly approaching Gay Disney weekend has brought back memories of the same weekend last year.

I had gone up on Wednesday night with some guys who own a swimsuit company named mmmwear.com. The deal was I would work 10 hours at the Gay Days Expo each day with them and then have the nights to myself to hang out and party.

Even though working the 10 hours was exhausting I managed to have an awesome time. I would work, take a quick break at the pool party, work again, eat something, go to the main party, change, and go to the after party till about 6am. Then I'd wake up at 9am and start all over again.

After 3 days of this I was pretty exhausted and feeling kinda goofy. Sunday morning I woke up and thought... "I know, a fresh haircut will give me a fresh feeling!" So I grabbed my clippers and started to give myself a nice buzzcut. After one pass over my head I realized I had forgot to put the guard on. I had shaved a large strip in my head right down to the bone. ARGHHHH!!!!!

There was no saving this one. I just went ahead and shaved it all off. Since I usually have a pretty good tan from living in South Florida I now had a small white head on top of my big white body. Yes, I have a small head. A VERY small head. In fact, I can't wear men's hats or even boy's hats. I have to buy my baseball caps in the small children's section at the GAP. It's embarassing.

So there I was with my bald and freaky looking at the biggest party in the country. What's a guy to do? I blocked any thoughts of my first shoot as Master Nick with Kink.com that was coming up in less than a week. I walked out of my hotel room with my small white head held high and a big smile on my face.

Most of my friends didn't even recognize me. And I'm talking my good friends. When they did recognize me they told me I looked like I had Lukemia. Nice. I didn't care though. I had a blast and played it up for all it was worth. I especially had fun going out that night and watching how the laser lights reflected off my bald white head.

This year I am not working while I'm there. It's strictly party time! And I plan to keep my hair this time.
Me and my friend Parker Williams at the pool party after I accidently shaved my head.

My friend Willie and I bonding over our shaved heads at the Arabian Nights after party. Good times!

Healing up and ready to party

After a great weekend of watching DVD's of the 2nd Season of Heros, overhauling my backyard, drinking many Mango Martinis Spritzers made with fresh mangos from my backyard and hanging out with Luke a whole bunch, I'm feeling pretty good again!

Things are back to normal, well almost normal at the gym. I've lost some strength and mobility in my hand but I'm doing some at-home physical therapy and I know I will recover completely. And it doesn't look gross any more! Just another scar. Actually, I think I added about 15 years to my lifeline! LOL! Next up is my shoulder surgery on the 18th of this month.

I got tired of the beard so I shaved it off. The break from shaving did wonders for my skin. It's soft and supple like a babies butt. I'll probably grow the beard back after my upcoming shoot in Palm Springs in a week and a half. I'll give more details about that in one of my next posts. Rumor has it I'll be working with Derrek Diamond again!

This weekend is Gay Disney... a HUGE event at Disney World in Orlando Florida. I've gone almost every year for the past 6 years and months ago booked a room (which is non-refundable) at the host hotel. So I guess I'm going! I haven't been in much of a party mood lately. Hopefully once I get around the sunny weather, great music and hot men, that will all change.