Thank you

I want to thank EVERYONE for the GREAT comments and emails about my last post. I am completely overwhelmed with the outpouring of positive support and concern. They really made me stop and think how lucky I really am. Sometimes life just seems a little overwhelming and you forget about all of the good things in your life. Thanks for reminding me.

I'm doing OK. Seriously. I mean, I have problems and issues life everyone else. You come home from work and find a letter saying most of your retirement savings are gone. Your truck engine dies. Your refrigerator dies. Your boyfriend cheats on you. Your dog pees in your bed. That's just life. Everybody goes through these things. Being a porn star doesn't give you a free pass from this stuff. So you deal with the problems and you try to move on. It's not always easy. Hell... it's never easy. But that's life sometimes.

I wasn't really that upset about the cover. I knew weeks ago I wasn't going to be on it. Let's see... should I put Matt Rush on the cover or Nick Moretti? DUH? Even I would pick him. Of course I'm not mad at him. He left me the sweetest comment on my blog post. Exactly what you would expect from my friend. Conner Habib also left me a really nice comment. He's one of friends I've made in the last couple of years that really means a lot to me. Bo Matthews is another. I can't begin to tell you how much I value the friendship I've developed with him. These are some great people that have enriched my life by their presence in it. I would have never met them if it was not for my work in the porn industry.

How could I possibly complain? I've had the amazing opportunity to do some work in the porn industry. How many people are lucky enough to get that chance? How could I not be completely thankful for that opportunity and for having some success with it? I take none of that for granted and I thank all the companies who have hired me and the fans that have appreciated me. If I ever get on the cover of a DVD... AWESOME! If I don't... that's OK too. Hell, I may never get another job in porn again. Who knows? There's always someone new on the scene. Someone younger and hotter with a bigger dick and a perkier ass. No one knows when they are going to stop being popular. I am completely grateful for having had the opportunity at all.

As long as I'm thanking you guys I also want to say how much it means to me that you actually find my blog interesting enough to keep reading it. I just try to write what's going on in my life and the way I feel about it. I try to keep it real and honest... the same way I try to live my life. If you let your thoughts and feeling out they can't stay inside and fester and make you bitter. You have to deal with them. So as long as you guys keep reading this blog I'll keep posting. As you know by now, it's not always that interesting and sometimes it's a little sad and depressing. But that's the way life is sometimes. I try to look on the bright side and find humor in even the toughest situations. Thanks for appreciating that and showing your support through those times.

I wanted to send a more personal message to you guys so I posted a video message at the top of this post. The only way I knew how to do it is through Facebook so I hope you can view it. I think you have to sign up for Facebook and request me as a friend. Don't worry... I'll say "Yes" and be your friend. :-) Please let me know if you are having problems viewing it and I'll try to help you out.