Today started so well. I slept late after working on a web project till 3:00am, spent some time with my dog and birds, and met Tim for lunch. We ate outside and the day was beautiful. I hadn't seen him a a while. Things went downhill quickly from there.I discovered someone I opened my heart to again, and trusted, betrayed me again. They say doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result is the definition of insanity. I'm fucking crazy.
I put my emotions on the back burner and headed to the gym to bang some weights around. I was just about done with a great back workout and I pulled a stomach/groin/oblique muscle really badly. I can hardly breathe or move and my balls are killing me. Well... just the right one. My shoulders were already hurting like hell from all the weird weather we've been having. Arthritis suck.
I'm trying not to think about any of the pains in my body or my heart tonight. Netflix delivered the DVD "Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium". I'm just about to hit play. It's supposed to be a light and whimsical movie about a magical toy store. Fantasy. I could use some fantasy right now. And a vicodin.
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((((hugs))) Wish I could give it in person. I hope the movie is able to distract you for a bit.
Gee, I am really sorry to hear all that Nick. But if it makes you feel any better, I hear that your butt trimming video got a great review on some blog named Fair something or other. Hope you're not drowning in all the rain!
I feel your pain Nick. Well maybe not in the same areas. Getting old is a bitch (I know) but you still got a ways to go bud.
Warning: Dill's gonna be long-winded AGAIN! lol
("They say doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result is the definition of insanity. I'm fucking crazy.")
No you're not, it's what we're programmed to do to combat loneliness ... but you KNOW that.
If you don't test the waters, you might wind up boiling the fish by mistake (or something) ... I'm not the best philosophy phrase producing kinda guy, but hopefully you get my drift. In a nutshell, don't give up, there's at *least* one or two dozen Mr. Rights out there for you that won't tromp on your heart and turn it into dog food.
I think part of what your fans love about you is that you're a softy, and a tough guy all rolled up into "Nick Moretti". It's that sweet, bashful, sensitive, vulnerability that makes you stand out above the other guys. It makes you human and approachable. I know you won't let heartache tarnish that wonderful spirit of yours but I am sorry that someone let you down and that you've been hurt.
Hugs and Cynder slobbers! ;o[)
Btw ...
Love that pic of Tober squishin' ya! The look on your face sums up the pain of betrayal in love pretty damn well!
wooooooow
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